no this is NOT to post what i promise i would post on the last one.

catzuki is missing. badly we may say. i dont think hes coming back we've been looking for him all over our community and hes nowhere to be found... im so sad, and to put this all on top catzilla (my other cat) attacked victoria awhile ago, horrendously. this is not the first time but its defitnely the worst. if she goes to school like that or if we send her to a doctor theyll probably call social services and put an order to kill him. damn. i've been crying all night. im so fucking mad at everything and everyone. i said and i would say it again this wouldnt have happenned if my mother were here. she was instead drinking with her buddies. on her way home when everything happenned, but she wasnt here. me, a 15 year old had to take care of my uncontrollable sister. just lost my dear cat and about to loose my other... all this while fucking people are trying to anniliate each other. its just not the best of times. i dont have my friends with me. i dont have my family. i dont have myself. i'm not me.

+i was going to post this on 26/sep but i couldnt. from all this i think im going to put the site on hold for a couple of weeks until i feel like postin' again... +